Why Me???!!!

[EvRi1]

On Easter Sunday 1994 I experienced a severe base-of-the-brain stroke leaving me permantly physically and mentally impaired; I was depressed, in denial and carried a huge grudge against the world!!!

Years later, while seeing Dr. Vincent, my umpteenth psych., still trying to get a respectable answer I asked him the same, simple question that I had been asking preachers and psychs. for years,

"Why ME???!!!"

He just smiled and softly replied, "Why not you? What makes you so special? Do you think that you're the only one with problems? We all have problems. It's our attitudes and choices in life that make the difference. You can continue to blame the first emergency room doctor and take it out on the world for what you have lost: Or, thank God for what you have left. You could be on dialysis or an iron lung, blind, deaf, mute, lost your sense of feel, taste or smell, or even be brain dead! Not everyone is as lucky as you!!"

He continued, "Many people don't get a second chance. We are all given only so much time here on Earth; We need to use it wisely! And that, you of all people should know that! You can continue to waste time wallowing in your pride and self pity; Or, make the most of the time that you have left. It's your choice; and besides, you are already on rock bottom anyway; and the only way from there is up."

This guy was good! He talked to me, not down at me in a way that I understood. Not like others up until then, or maybe I just wasn't listening. (when the student is ready) Anyway, he struck a nerve! It was then and there, after wasting years at "rock bottom", carrying a tremendous grudge, that I finally broke down and let go! (It wasn't pretty; and to this day it is very difficult for me to talk about without getting emotional) I stopped hating, and realized that God, friends & family, health and time here on Earth are the only truly important things in life! (Also, the most abused!) Instantly, life took on a new meaning.

When Dr. Vincent, said the words, "Why not you? What makes you so special? It's our attitudes and choices in life that make the difference." It all became very clear to me. I instantly realized that I had a choice to make! I could choose to believe that my experience was a dream, that my brain was starving from lack of blood as I've been told, and continue to worry about what others think; or that my prayers were answered and I was granted my second chance.

Suddenly, my mind was flooded with memories of past experiences that led up to this event! I began to experience a sense of relief that I had never felt before. The bitterness and contempt just melted away. I actually wanted to live again! I understood that God does love me; and that I was given a second chance for a reason. My mission is simply to tell "You" this story. Within man, God has placed a divine seed. A seed of his self (A seed of choice). Just like me, you need to make a choice (Satan owns the fence). http://www.christiansoldierscross.com/Count_Your_Blessings_and_The_Rest_of_the_Story.htm

[Bradley]

Exerted from your website:

I was lying in bed thinking, "Man, I'm really doing good. I have a wife of 23 years, a daughter graduating from college as a civil engineer in two weeks, another in the national honor society going into her final year at high school. I make an above average income, drive a nice car, live in a nice home, money in the bank, yada yada. I don't think any body can mess with me now." As if all that wasn't vain enough, I couldn't stop there, I added, "Not even God."


WoW . . . I guess you were asking for it ???


For years I wondered if I was I actually going to * or was it a "very vivid dream"? Finally, I swallowed my pride and began going to church to confide in preachers, telling them about my experience. Instead of compassion, counseling and guidance, I was ridiculed. Twice, I was actually asked to leave. I was always asked, "Why you? What makes you so special?" Only Jesus can arise from the dead.
(Special? I never died!!! It felt more like a curse!)


How sad that some have never actually heard from God
Some think that you need to listen to that wee small voice of God . . .

. . . I say . . .

"Listen Loudly"

Thanks for sharing Brother.

Lord, Father God in Heaven . . .
I come to you not even knowing what to pray,
except that you continue to be with Rick,
encouraging him his wife and his family,

Lord, help him to continue in your love,sharing,his life with you, to others,
and your message of love and hope, salvation, and life eternal.

Thank you Jesus
Bless your Holy Name

[crazy4jc]

Thank you very much for that ..reading it gives me such a joy and new power .
A text off the radio comes to mind ,do not know who it sings but..
"This is the first day of the rest of your life" ,,,,,,these words seem to wake me up ..

Thanks ray

[Matthew]

This is a great story. Thank you for sharing it with us. I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. The older I get the more I see how I have truely been blessed all my life. It is easy to look at all the things in the world and think you have it a lot worse than you do. When we really sit down and think it over we see that we really dont have it so bad. I can see so many things coming together in my life that its impossible for me to give credit for it all to anyone but God. I have sinned and not always done what I knew was right but He is mercyful to forgive me and show me the steps I should take. He takes me by the hand and He walks with me on my journey. He will never leave nor forsake us. I am so glad that I know Him and that He knows I am not perfect. If I should fall He will always be there to help me back up. Thank you Father God for your love and mercy.